It's been one of those beautiful, glorious, God-given days where much was accomplished and I was so blessed. Yet, tugging in the back of my mind and whispering in my ears, is a little voice that lets me know that I'm just not quite like "all the others."
Let me give you a glimpse...This morning, my DH (dear husband) and I went to pick up our Farm Box of Deliciousness, take a bag to the thrift store, pick up some coats for a coat drive we're sponsoring for Grace Resources, drop some books off to the library and mail some packages for some items that I sold on Listia. It should have been a super relaxing morning but I was on the tip of the iceberg with tension.
I was dropping stuff off to the thrift store and donating coats, yet the shirt I'm wearing has a million holes around the edge of it. The library books were wonderful, but I had forgotten that the movies are due 1 week before the books. Library fine. I had been trying to help our family out to make a little money by selling a few things on Listia, but it turns out that I had no clue how expensive shipping is, and the money people paid me, nowhere near covered the cost to ship the items. Money down the drain.
This might all be just fine and dandy, but we need milk, we need to get 2 white elephant gifts for a party, we need to bake a million cookies as gifts this year because we can't afford anything else, and our cars are breaking. Whine, whine, whine. :) Joey's been out of a job 9 months now, and things are just super tight. School books are due for payment in January and they cost a fortune! The government keeps threatening a shutdown...and that's where I work. It's just been kind of a tough month. Christmas is supposed to be fun, and about Christ and a perfect time to love even more on family and be festive, right?!
Needless to say, all this whirs around in my mind and being the super-emotional basket-case that I am right now, I gotta do something to combat that! I can't imagine if I wasn't a Christian, not having a God to run to and just talk things out with and love me despite all my worrying and distrust. Thankfully I have a loving God and a patient husband. I am blessed. I have a home, a job, 2 puppies, a marvelous man, and enough stuff to cause clutter. I have a lot more than a lot of people do right now. Here's something I'm working on memorizing because obviously I need to remember it!! :)
Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more important than food, and the body more important than clothes? Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life?
Sooooo true. Gosh, darn it! I know things work out for good, for those who love the Lord. Whyyyy do I have the worst time putting trusting into practice?
Despite my buzzing, running-rampant mind, some other things help to ease this anxiousness: pretty things. Namely: plants, gardening, flowers, etc. Thus, today was the perfect day for our farm basket to be delivered. Look at all the wonderful goodies we got!!
Lettuce and Arugula
Spinach and Rosemary
I made some tasty soup with the potatoes, carrots and squash...I'll share the recipe later!
After cooking and putting away my treasures, I repotted a few of my window-sill plants. I'm a wanna-be Green Thumb. Slowly, but surely, right?!
My parents-in-law drink all the coffee, so I scored some awesome coffee cans from them for my new plant pots!
So, I'm attempting to grow rosemary from cuttings, that I now transplanted from an egg carton to a small black pot. They sort of look half-dead. But I'm hoping!! There's a bit of green there! The rose bush is from the dollar store from my DH (:) and it's still alive, the green fluffy plant is also from the dollar store and was labeled: Colorful Plant. Still don't know what it is. Any ideas? The little square black container randomly started sprouting last week and has about 4 mini sprouts in it of who knows what. I planted something in there last spring that died and can't remember what it was! :)
And in the black round pot is a Basil plant that had wonderful leaves, then slowly wilted, dropped its leaves and ended up a stub, stuck in the dirt. Not sure what sort of disease it had. I left it, then watered it randomly last week, and wonder of wonders...its growing! :) The leaves are all deformed where they were munched off, buuuut it looks like it's growing healthier than before! What on earth. So, I have a motley crew of plants, wouldn't you say? :) And somehow, helping things to grow and be beautiful, helps me calm down, stop worrying and breathe easy.
God's got the lilies, and the deformed basils, and the mini rosebushes, and the funky little sprouts all taken care of. I know I am too. :)